Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Something Lovely

The One Flaw In Women

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
'Why are you spending so much time on this one?'
And the Lord answered, 'Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands.'

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
'Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish.'
'But I won't, ' the Lord protested.
'I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days.'

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
'But you have made her so soft, Lord.'

'She is soft,' the Lord agreed,
'but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.'

'Will she be able to think?', asked the angel.

The Lord replied,
'Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate.'

The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
'Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.'

'That's not a leak,'
the Lord corrected,
'that's a tear!'
'What's the tear for?' the angel asked.

The Lord said, 'The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride.'
The angel was impressed.
'You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing.'

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take 'no' for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a f riend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give



Monday, February 16, 2009

Tired, so very tired...

Seriously, I have never been so tired in my entire life. I've had a migraine for a week now, and I find myself nodding off every hour or so. I nodded off at least 5 times today at work. Only reason I'm cognant right now is because my friend Jessica brought her baby by and he was crying which meant instant wet shirt for me :(

I woke up this morning and my night shirt was completley soaked through. Yet I can't sleep in a bra with nursing pads cause it hurts.. Maybe this is a good sign I'll have plenty of milk.

I want this pregnancy to be over now. I love my baby, I love feeling her move and I love my long shiney hair and big bouncy boobies... But I am tired, sore, cranky, weepy, and on a constant rollercoaster of emotions and physical pain. I'm ready to be done. I want to FFWD the next 8 weeks and just get her here. I'm almost completley ready for her. I have everything but the carseat/stroller.

UGH. I just want to take a nap.

I'm looking forward to being a stay at home mom. I think it's going to be great for the girls and for Mike and I. I'll be able to monitor our finances more effectively, plan and manage our shopping budget and meals, and spend more quality time with both the girls and with Mike.

I'm hoping I will be happy as a stay at home mom. I've always worked, so I'm not sure what it will be like. However I'm confident I can make it work.

30 Minutes to go until I can go home. Thank the Lord cause I'm about to nod off again.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

I really should be sleeping

I'm just to tired to sleep.
That sounds ridiculous but it's true lol.

The baby is doing well. She's growing and moving and groovin in there as we speak. I feel like a fat cow, however. She's so darn low that I feel like I've been riding a horse every day. My back and my hips hurt and my belly is so huge and sore. I have to be really careful when I move in bed or get up because it feels like my belly is ripping inside when I move to fast.

Life is okay right now. Steve Wynn cut everybody's pay by 10-15% at Wynn and Encore. That puts Mike and I in a tough spot. I'm going to have to quit my job and stay home with the girls. To have them both in daycare means my entire salary. So we're going to try having me stay home with them, maybe picking up a night job, to save money.

I've been researching money saving tips, bugging my mom for recipies, cutting back on luxeries we don't need. I've also decided to use cloth diapers and breastfeed Isabella when she's born. Cloth diapers are not that much different than disposable, just have to wash them... and I breastfed Caitlin her first 3 or 4 months. I want to try to do it longer with Isabella if she'll latch on.

I'm also going to kick my own ass into losing weight after she's born and the dr. clears me back to normal physical activity. The breastfeeding will help, and so will the frugal living. I'm going to be cooking dinner everyday for Mike and I and the kids so I'll be able to really watch what we eat. We won't be going out to dinner anymore and I'll be walking Caitlin to and from school every day. So I should be able to lose all the baby weight and start trimming down the fat I had before.

I'm hoping that I'll be able to pull off this stay at home mom thing. I'm hoping I'll be able to have dinner on the table for my husband and kids every night and have the house clean. Not that I want to be some 50's housewife or anything... but since Mike has to work all day I should be able to take care of the home front right?

Anyhow, off to bed with me. I'm soooo tired and I need to get up early enough to take my meds and make breakfast for me and bug. No more getting coffee out at the shop. Trying to make coffee at home and eat at home as much as possible to save money.