Thursday, March 19, 2009

oh WTF!

My darling belly bean is trying to make me crazy.
I swear I had dropped this week. my belly was low and shaped funny, I was in a ton of pain, I was kinda hoping things were well on their way to wrapping up.

No such luck.

Go in for the ultrasound today only to find out SURPRISE!!!! She is no longer head down. Now she is laying sideways like in a hammock. My hopes for her being fully engaged went out the window. She had been vertex (head down) for a couple weeks but apparently all the pain I've been feeling is her trying to move around and flip over when there is no more room left for her to do that.

I was in tears.

Maybe its just the hormones, maybe its the fatigue... but I don't think I can take another 4 weeks of this hell... My first daughter was no where near as painful as this one has been. Even the miscarriages were less painful than this pregnancy.
I just want to be done.
I'm so tired, exhausted really... I just want to curl up in a ball and sob.

Lucky for me I still have a ton of crap to get done around the house. Bed rest or no bed rest, I need to get things clean for when my husband's family comes down. I need to finish up cleaning the nursery and washing the cloth diapers. I need to get Caitlin's room cleaned up with her cause it's a war zone in there. I need to plan and shop for next weeks meals.

I'm going to just go lay down now and stop rambling. I'm not in a good place, mentally speaking, right now.

Monday, March 16, 2009

34 weeks. Crazy...

Well, we're in the final home stretch it seems.

We had some complications a few weeks ago. My amniotic fluid dropped really low for some reason and they put me on bed rest and extra fluids. It seemed to help because as of last Thursday my fluid level is back to normal. They are still seeing me twice a week for ultrasounds and fetal monitoring. I have a appointment today @ 2pm.

As much as I hate going in to the doctor so much, I do really enjoy seeing her on the ultrasound twice a week. It gives me some peace to know she's doing okay.

On the home front, things are getting better little by little. Mike is still as stressed as ever, but he's managing it better. Out daughter is slowly starting to improve in school. We are having her evaluated for ADD/ADHD. She's pretty much the poster child for it, and it would explain all the horrible behavior and crazy mood swings. We're hoping things work out and between medication, more structure, and me staying home with her and her sister... things will be better for the next school year.

I have 2 baby showers this weekend. My coworkers are throwing me a shower at my friend Joyce's house, and my friend Clarice is throwing a small one for family and a few friends at a Italian restaurant. We are pretty much set for Isabella's arrival now. I'm waiting on a few more cloth diapers to get here, but other than that all we need now is the baby :D

That's pretty much all I can think of as far as a update right now.
I will try and post more when I'm not brain dead.

Namaste and love.